Prior to a couple days ago, for the past two weeks I had just felt blah, stuck, in a rut..whatever you want to call it. I know we all experience those feelings at some point–sometimes we can pinpoint exactly what’s causing it and other times we’re not really sure. Either way, it happens.
I still can’t really pinpoint why I was feeling that way–I wasn’t unhappy about anything in particular but when it came to my blog, IG posts, IG stories, YouTube…I had no motivation. I love what I do and each day I wake up excited to create and share content with you guys but for whatever reason for those two weeks especially I just felt so stuck and uninspired. I think part of it has to do with still not finding my niche so to speak. If I can be honest with you guys, I feel like I have so much to offer but just don’t know how to execute it.
For example, I originally started this blog to share my outfits and personal style, and I wanted to start incorporating that more here. But I knew I didn’t want to have a “like to know it” type account where I was sharing and linking new outfit pieces each day. Not that there is anything wrong with that at all but it just wasn’t what I felt called to do. But I also realized that my style is super casual–meaning, I’m not getting dressed up and putting together these super interesting outfits for people to look at each day. I also don’t have the desire to only share new outfits with you guys. Yes, I love style but there are other things I want to share about. I don’t know–so with that said I’m definitely not a fashion blogger either haha.
I think I was originally feeling so uninspired because I just don’t know how I want to navigate this space that I’m in. And then last week with my grandma passing away and then buying a house that same day–things were just weird. It was like a roller coaster of emotions and not really knowing what to feel. So it didn’t help adding all of that to the prior feelings I was having.
I still feel a little lost on what I want to share with you guys, what I want my brand to be, etc. And that is a really frustrating feeling. To feel like you have a lot of potential but just not knowing how to harness it. Anyone else ever feel that way? You feel like you’re meant to do something and know you can be successful in it but you just don’t know how to get there. Part of me constantly feels like I need to niche down in order to continue to grow in this industry but I don’t genuinely feel like I can do that. My interests go way beyond one niche and feel like I have way more to share with you guys than just one area. So it’s this tug and war between what is the best business strategy versus what do I truly want to do. Because at the end of the day, I love what I’m doing and I would do it even if I wasn’t able to make a living from it; but it is also a business and want it to be successful so I can create even better content for you guys. So yeah, I think all that has a large part to do with how I’ve been feeling lately–just not really knowing my place. I honestly think that this point though that I’ve come to terms that I’m just truly a lifestyle blogger. My life as a whole and my personality is why people follow me (or so you guys tell me 😉 ) so to narrow my scope wouldn’t be fair to you guys or myself (even if that does mean growing my brand as a slower rate).
I think though that if in general you’re feeling stuck or uninspired that you just kind of have to go with it. Whenever I tried to force myself to do an IG story, to post, to blog–it felt so forced and contrived. So I just didn’t post and took a bit of a hiatus. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think we all need to wallow in our own misery when we’re feeling this way but I also think it’s important to just accept and acknowledge your emotions in order to move forward.
Even though I’ve been feeling more like my old self the last couple days, I still am feeling a little lost and unsure about everything. But I’m just trying to take things day by day and just realize that I don’t have to have it all figured out. It can be hard when you look at other bloggers and feel like they have everything together and have their content down to a science, but I know that everyone struggles and has their days. So I’m just trying to focus on myself and what I want to do.
I also started meditating. Stephen meditates every morning and it’s something that I’ve been thinking of adding to my routine but just haven’t done yet. Jenay (@namastejenay) was sweet enough to offer me her ebook “How To Manifest Your Best Self” after she heard me talking about my rut on IG stories. I’ve started reading it and I think it will be really helpful. I’ll keep you guys posted! But yeah, in general I think that starting the day off with your own thoughts is beneficial. More meditating in the morning and less scrolling through IG when I first wake up haha. Do any of you guys meditate or having any morning routines that you feel help set you up for a positive and successful day? I’d love to hear if so! I’ll take any tips 🙂
Alright guys, I think that sums up everything for now! Before I go though, I just wanted to say thanks to you guys for bearing with me and being so encouraging. Whenever I was feeling this way last week you guys were so supportive and I really appreciate that! xxC